In a text conversation with Li, I asked how long it took for the Wellbutrin to work for her. Here's our convo:
Me: How long did it take for you to feel like the Wellbutrin was working?
Li: Way longer than with other antidepressants, and it's a subtle helper. Doesn't make me feel or behave differently, just overall there's a noticeable change...
[Me jumping the gun and responding, not knowing Li was adding more in her next text]
Me: Okay. So can you ballpark how long it took until the noticeable change was evident?
Li: ...in number of down days, sleepless nights, etc. And it's much easier to mute the "self-hatred channel" in my brain when it turns on.
Li: More like forty-five days than the usual two-three weeks. Then again, I had to ramp up to the max dosage, an am not on anything else... YMMV [your mileage may vary]
Me: I see. Thanks. I'm just growing frustrated because the Zoloft started working so quickly that I got my hopes up. It's only been three weeks so I need to stop obsessing.
Li: <3 [heart/love]
Me: :) lmL [smiley face and I love you in sign language]
That made me feel better about not feeling anything from the Wellbutrin yet. So I'm going to do what I can to not focus and obsess about when or if it is going to work for me. It's a process.
While I hate that Li suffers from depression, I'm so glad that I have a very close friend that I can talk to about meds, fears, setbacks and triumphs in regards to mental illness. I have other friends and family members that I talk with, but I never feel like they fully understand because they have not been there. And it's not that Li and I have had the same experiences, but we are able to sympathize and empathize with each other.
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