Broken

Yesterday was a bad day.  A very, very bad day. 

It wasn't because of depression.  It was because of something I had to do.

Yes, had to do.  I need to remind myself of that until I believe it.   Because I really cannot even remotely fathom believing it at the point.

I cannot write about it now.  The emotions are just too raw.  But I feel broken.

I did have a panic attack though.

Hopefully I will be able to write about the very, very bad days soon.

But I am forever changed.  Nothing from this day forward will ever truly be the same.